It’s ironic, (almost paradoxical), how the temporary satisfaction of self-indulgence ultimately robs you of the true benefit of self-love.
When I ponder that statement, I think of bread.
WARM, fresh, soft, yummy BREAD. I LOVE bread.
You know those cheesy biscuits from Red Lobster? Lets just say, I order dinner because it’s the sole requirement for obtaining the biscuits! Even wheat toast has appealed to me in plain splendor for as long as I could remember. Oh…And don’t get my started on breadsticks!
Yep: I LOVE bread! And I’m pretty sure I love it to a fault. Is there such a things as a bread-addict? If there were, it would be me.
”Hello, My name is Angela and I’m a bread-a-holic.”
Bread gives me immediate joy and satisfaction but it wreaks havoc on my waistline. Too much of one thing is known to be bad for you. It is shameful how little control I feel I have when bread is nearby. It is even more shameful when I promise to absolve and fail.
Post haste, I always feel guilt over my indulgence and a sense of disappointment in myself usually ruins my day. Was it worth it? It must be because I’m a repeat offender. I despise my struggle for control to do what I should or shouldn’t.
How the temporary satisfaction of self-indulgence ultimately robs you of the truer need and benefit of self-love.
Today I was asked, “Do you think you love yourself enough to say, ‘No’”? That’s when my thoughts shifted…and a still small voice reminded me of Bread and asked, “What if you reached for Bread when you really want to reach for bread? What if ‘I can’t stop’ or ‘I can’t get enough Bread’…was a positive?”
Holy Spirit whispered a word of reminding:
“For the Bread of God is He who comes down from heaven and gives life to the world.” John 6:33 and “I am the living bread which came down from heaven. If anyone eats of this bread, he will live forever; and the bread that I shall give is My flesh, which I shall give for the life of the world” John 6:51
I was given a plan of attack. It wouldn’t be me, battling hopelessly on my own. I would have a Partner…the strongest I know! And He will help me choose to feed my spirit and not my appetite.
I laughed out loud as He encouraged me that in this case, it was perfectly acceptable to indulge on Bread and eating your troubles away was actually a good thing?!
“Oh yes, I LOVE Bread! It is the most fulfilling, life-giving element in Heaven and on Earth!”
Let that sink in.
(I know I am).